happy 2012!

I meant to put up this video earlier, well obviously just before NYE..somehow I didn't get to this blog before NYE so here goes *queenmotherofprocrastination* anyway click on the video and read on (if you plan to read if not feel free to watch the video only)

Okay I totally forgot what I wanted to write earlier..too much things in my head.

I read my blog entry in January last few years (btw 2010 entries had white font haha!too lazy to edit but you know Ctrl+A and you can see them) and it made me felt lonely!
Seems like I spent it with less people each year...though I think it wasn't a big thing anyway, but it must be lovely to have a plan with close friends and family, right?

Doesn't help that I keep refusing to attend any social events (well, mostly office parties/night out although there are different reasons to this altogether)
Sometimes, I think I'm at a point where..I feel I can only fit in with my already existing friends but at the same time also doubt myself if I'm being a good friends as I'm away and only keep in touch once a while *palmface*
Most of the time (like now) I come to a conclusion, that I just miss to have my girlfriend by my side..(well all of them will be better obviously). My girlfriends, not just any girlfriend.
*sigh*
I think I just miss my girlfriends..to have some girls talk on daily basis...shop and have coffee afterwards while obsessing on our new-buys and you know things that girl do together..

Of course my fiance always said..but I'm here.
Pity him always have to put up with my tantrums, there was one time I actually cried while we were in queue at the cinema because I was pulling a face and he asked what I really want.
(It was to be in Malaysia and have my merry family and friends with me)
Like seriously et?! I don't know how I ended up like this..so immature!2 years ago, I don't even know I can cry!
Anyway, you are doing a great job mr fiance :) I promise I'll be better and I always love your silly lame jokes and food haha (ps.it is the time of the month just in case you caught me crying anytime this week because of starvation even after a four course meal)

I also find that it's really hard to let go of small little things and I tend to take everything seriously.
There, I said it!
I think too much he always said. I can't help it, I got nothing better to do in this cold weather and when I get back I have to focus on something else, you know new life.
This is not cold feet right? Because.. I still miss him eventhough we just met (feel free to puke but this is true)

Anyhoo.

That's too much ramblings going nowhere.

Happy 2012, may this year everything will be better for us..or may we make everything better for us (whichever side you want to root for..i'm aiming for the latter but struggling to get away from the first)
..and may someone else take my reign from being the Queen mother of procrastination.

speaking of which..my wedding will be in 10 months and all I have really ticked off my list were the date and photographers...if only Malaysia is next door..